Failure

So what do you all do when you get knocked down? I pray, I try to push on even harder, but some days it just doesn't work. Some days I just want to lay in bed and never get out. The energy it takes to stay awake seems misspent since I am only thinking down thoughts anyway. That's like asking the dentist NOT to give you Novocaine, if you ask me it makes no sense.

Normally I don't like people to know when I am down, after all we are all struggling, but in an attempt to have an honest blog, that is part of life I have to deal with quite frequently. And I know many of you do too. So see, I am no different that anyone else. There are days where I can't fight, I just want to stop and sleep. I know I will get over it, but the older I get, the longer and darker the periods seem. Man, do you ever just get tired of fighting? I am sick of it already.

Anyway I just wanted you to know you are not alone. I am there with you and millions of others feel this way. One day at a time, one hour at a time and eventually it will pass. I don't feel comfortable showing this side of me, but on long nights when you live alone and the only sound is your own heart skipping every other beat, it's rough. I know you understand.

I promise when I have a bit more energy I will post more and get back to some good positive posts. In the mean time I wanted you to know I am still praying for all of you, still thinking of you and reading your posts on the board. Sorry to be down, but we will make it my friends, some day.